The above picture is a new tattoo I have, "And, Still I Rise".
I have taken Lent off from social media - firstly, because I wasn't doing so good with depression and I really didn't want to have a lot to do with anyone; and secondly, I figured the time away would give me some time to get over the depression and mostly what can I do now with the brain injury. Now, I wish I could tell all of you that I'm doing much better and I know where I'm "going" now...but alas, I can't. I'm still somewhat depressed, mostly because I still don't know what to do with myself. Plus in my mind (yes, I know it is wrong as well), if I can't get "paid" - it feels like I am not a contributing member of society (again, I KNOW this is not right to think). I am volunteering with the Edmonton Humane Society and I really enjoy it. But it bother's me that I can find a part-time PAYING job to contribute to our monthly bills (but that is the way it is today, and hopefully, it won't be forever).
Anyways, back to my tattoo - it says a lot. I had it placed on my right side of my clavicle so I could see it everyday when I get out of the shower...and, still I rise. My sister-in-law, Terry, saw it and she started tearing up when she saw it (and that means the world to me because amid it all - my family and friends still keep me going 💕). It means a lot to me, as well, because really, even on days when I am feeling a bit bummed out about things, I still have the gumption to get up, do the homework I have to improve myself, I am continuing to look for some sort of "paying" job and I'm doing all I can to keep the depression away. It's a journey that's for sure, and I will keep on going through the good times and the not so good times!
